So Helpless...

Kris and I have been dealing with a sick child since Friday of last week. Jonah has only been in daycare for two weeks and is already sick. Everyone warned me that this would happen. I never would have believed it would have happened this soon. Two weeks, really. But there we were, Friday morning and before 8:00 Jonah had 5 dirty diapers. This was only a fourth of the number of diapers I changed because they were dirty. Let's do the math.....correct, that would be 20 dirty diapers in one day. It was a busy day. The only thing Jonah would do was eat, poop, scream (because of the inevitable diaper rash) and sleep. When I woke up on Saturday morning, Jonah was feeling better and I breathed a sigh of relief. I felt a sense of confidence, accomplishment or was it relief. Whatever my feeling was, I was glad to know we had survived one of the hardest days of being a parent since Jonah has been home. He was still running a fever on Sunday and had a rough night with the dirty diapers. This lead up to the first day I went to work sleep deprived. I had been up with Jonah since 3:00 am. Kris stayed home with him Monday, and Tuesday we decided he was better. Jonah went back to daycare, but around 12:00 I got the call to come and get him. Kris was able to pick him up and they enjoyed the afternoon together.

I have not felt that helpless since Jonah was sick in the hospital. At least this time, there were some things I could do. I could change his diaper, finger paint his toosh with diaper cream, feed him, touch him, hug him and love on him. However, I could not make the pain go away, make the pooping stop or save his toosh from the horrible rash. There is nothing worse than your baby being sick. This is now my second time of going through him being sick and though this time was not as serious as the first, I still felt helpless. It was hard for me to get up on Monday and go into work, knowing that my baby was still sick. I knew he was in good hands with daddy, but I just felt like a mother is suppose to be there. I made it through the day and could not wait to get home, love on him and let him know mommy was there.

I am blessed to have such a wonderful husband. My husband has embraced fatherhood 110%. He loves every minute with Jonah and I think the two of us work well as a team.

TO Kris:

Thank you for marrying me
Thank you for doing the laundry
Thank you for my new car
Thank you for accepting my faults (mostly car issues)
Thank you for being so understanding
Thank you for wanting to help
Thank you for being a wonderful father
Thank you for my son, Jonah
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for cooking dinner
Thank you for being there when I need a shoulder to cry on
Thank you for loving my son
Thank you for helping with bath time
Thank you for picking up Jonah from daycare
Thank you for wanting to pick Jonah up from daycare
Thank you for wanting to share responsibilities of parenthood
Thank you for being willing to compromise
Thank you for being you